“PLEASE BE CAREFUL WITH MY HEART”

PriNzhotTtiE SezZ!!!

I just checked my mail and i got a message from a guy named Iko, It reminds me of the Brokeback Mountain story in a pinoy version.



I read it and it made me cry part of the letter says....

Dear Prinzhottie;

I wanna share you guys this experience of mine it was a long time ago, but the feelings is still fresh in my heart, in my soul. Hope you guys, learn something from this.

By the way your blog is really cool and heartfelt. I love it so much. Thanks a lot.

Iko

Here's the lovestory....

It was a gloomy Thursday, year 2004… a message popped in my friendster inbox. You asked me if I could be your friend. I don’t know why I said “YES” on you, while many others message me too and turned them down many times. You said “I guess ur kinda cool to be with, and guess what? We’re in the same province”, then I paint a smile in my face and said to myself ‘Oh I think this one is cool’. So I just reply, “ Yeah, it’s my pleasure to be your friend too”. You asked for my number and I gave it to you.

Then we’ve been texting every time; in short we’re friends in no time. You got my attention, I got yours. Fortunately we meet one Saturday night, and then we clicked as friends not only in cyberspace and in SMS. We got gimmicks together. Do you remember when we’re walking together with the cold wind along the campus near to your place? We’re shaking yet we we’re singing together even you didn’t want me to hear your voice, cuz’ your kinda shy when you heard mine. But then again I managed to back you up, and then I hear you whisper, you are singing in mild tone… hahaha…”Bakit pa ba nagawa, nasaktan ko ang isang tulad mo…”…

I never thought we had the same type of music, R&B is my life and you said yours’ too. You said you like Jay R’s “Bakit Pa Ba”, and I like it too. Then I sang One Last Cry of Brian Mcknight.. We giggled and laugh so loud when I sang it all out. “Hey ka-career-in ko na to”, I jokingly said mimicking Brian’s mannerism…

Spending the night together, is a “no plan”, but then we stayed and uh-la-la we almost have no stop chatting with our own “kwento”. About those things we experienced in the past, hahahaha…. Kinda nerve wracking! I thought before that nobody can surpass my naughtiness but I was moved with your jokes. Then you said, “Dude, I never imagine that we got this far, you’re the coolest friend I’ve got”, I shouted out loud and says, “ You’re fuckin’ cool too, you know what, I bet we’re destined to know each other!” and we exchange high fives….

Then we decided to go to training dorm, do you still remember when the caretaker asked why we still there and it was too late that time. We lied! “Estudyante po kami dito, kaso po ginabi kami galling ng educational tour taga bulacan pa po kasi kami” as you’ve said… then we got the room. We talk pretty intimate, about love life, about whats goin in there, and suddenly our eyes locked for moment and then we kissed. I just closed my eyes that time, that was my very first passionate kiss. It feels like I was floating that time, I don’t know what to do, so I just kiss you very raw in return. Then freeze! As if an angel falls down in the air, then you said “I love you”, I just smile and said “if you’re goin to say that again I will kiss you this time the best that I can”, then you hurriedly say “I love you” many times. We kissed, from lips, to cheeks, to ears, down to neck, down the chest, down there… down there… as if we were in the middle of fire… passionate way of making love…so sweet.. so hot… so unforgettable and you said “PLEASE BE CAREFUL WITH MY HEART”, I just turn and grin, a song again hahaha!.. “no its not a song”, I never took your words seriously…

As the dawn breaks, and I have to go, you are with me until the bus came… you said “U take care dude!, keep in touch, I’m gonna miss you!”, I said “Same here!, just stay cool”… until I only see your image far away waving for a nice trip.

Then at first we are always communicating, txt, calls., but then it fades away because of my busy sched, I overlooked you.. the glitters and fun made me forget you “please I am not ready for a relationship, I wanted to do more things let us be friends” I said intxt…I was scared that time to fall in love even you always trying to call me up everyday…then the communication subsides…

Days… weeks.. months.. two years just passed.. I went home to search you.. for now I know what my heart really breathe for..

But that thing is just the thing of the past... its just that I really wanted to pursue my singing. If you know how much I really love you, until now no one already touched my heart because of you. I tried to find you, sa CLSU, sa email, sa common friends… but I failed to locate you

Then someone told me of what happened…I cried a lot in the middle of hallway we once walked in the campus…

… until now I love you…whenever I got the chance to visit you, I always make it to a point to just light a candle and gave you some flowers and seek for a prayer…I know you’re there, watching me…I’ve never known that you are sick.. Now I remember when you said “PLEASE BE CAREFUL WITH MY HEART”, you meant it, I am crying always… it was so painful in my part but I know that I cause you much pain than I am experiencing now… you taught me the lesson I know until my last breathe will linger on my mind, heart and soul… the real meaning of love… the importance of it, the chance, the time. Now the only thing I can make is just to promise you that whenever it knocks again I will surely take care of it and treat it as if no tomorrow, giving the best that I can… because tomorrow is not a promise anymore…

I love you so much…please wait for me there…it won’t take so long… I love you…

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For IKO;

I know it is too hard to overcome that experience, pero di ba kesa naman magmukmok tayo at hintayin yung time na magkasama tayo in heaven ngmahal natin sa buhay, it is really unfair to those who loves us na kasama pa natin until now. Try to focus urself woth your family and friends if ever man na di mo na kayang magmahal muli.

PEro alam mo kahit naman di mo hanapin ang pagmamahal, sabi nga ni Say at Sam "HUwag umasang magmahal muli, Itoy darating sayo....".

Iko you know you're such a nice person, I sensed it the way you tell us you're story pero nagkataon lang na hidni ka pa ganun ka mature when the love between you and him happened. Part ng pagiging grown-up individuals natin yung mga ganung circumstances.

God Bless. Cheer up. Salamat sa email. MOre POwer!!!

Sincerely; PriNzhoTtiE

MORAL LESSON: When you love someone, be true to yourself. Love is a never ending process. Kahit masaktan ka o mahirapan ipaglaban mo kasi yun ang binubulong ng puso mo. Laging nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Di mahalaga kung ilang beses kang nabigo sa larangan ng pag-ibig pero ang mahalaga ay kung ilang beses ka bumangon at natuto sa bawat sakit na naramdaman mo. HIgit sa lahat mahalaga na matutunan natin na magmahal muli...dahil sa tunay pagibig walang talo...

O di ba ang drama ng eksena, kasi naman kung di ka mabubuhay pano ka makakagimik di ba, harsh yun di ba, kaya mo bang mabuhay ng walang select, strip, or retro? ang harsh hehehehe.. cheer up masarap ang buhay...pero higit sa lahat don't forget na si God ang makasolve lahat ng tanong natin sa isip natin di ba. Have faith in Him.